Heart&Soul: 05/01/2010

The Sweetest Love Song Ever Written

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I want….
To feel you…
Inside of me…
In a way, in which I witness the warmth…
Of your words…
Speech that dances and plays on the tip of your tongue,
Leaving me yearning to play along…
To engage in sensual, seductive, spine tingling…verbs.
Sensational conversation that encompasses and massages my entire being…
From the neck up…
More than willing to sacrifice the physical, just to get to know you in the mental.
I hang on to your every word, no matter the content of the conversation,
Because if you would allow me to have my way with you…
We could both be left hanging,
Basking in the depths of each others souls,
As they become one through commonalities,
And the sound of our laughter, will become the sweetest love song ever written.

Allow me…
Access into the core of your being..
One wish…
One chance…
One love…
And ONCE I’m done…I promise, you’ll be begging me for more…
More of me and you, connecting on a level, like no other…
As the tension continuously rises, until we’re floating into a climax brought about simply by each other’s presence…
Indulging in two minds, becoming one…
And just when you think you’ve had enough,
I’ll show you that…
The sound of our laughter, can become the sweetest love song ever written.

The Well

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Until I find some new inspiration I'll be posting some older poems...

July 7, 2009

Someone help!

Susie’s trapped in the Well!

Well, to hell with Susie, let her stay there and dwell,

She knew the consequences way before she ever fell!

Everybody warned her what would happen if she strayed.

They preached about it, teached about it, all of her days.

But Susie decided to see what was the hype,

She had always been the “find out for yourself” type.

And though she knew better,

Her mother had taught her,

She just couldn’t resist “just testing the waters”

But the crazy thing was—

When Susie got trapped in,

Her father was there—he knew it would happen.

He pulled her right out, and gave her a hug,

And wrapped her in the warmth, of a fathers love.

But, Lord! Save me!

I fell in the well.

Im a lot like Susie, in case you can’t tell.

I knew I belonged, above those dark waters,

But fighting temptations proved to be harder.

Spent my whole life, looking in from the outside

I only knew the beach, but wanted to feel the tides.

Fell from the Word, so full of dismissing,

Its not always fun, being a teenager AND a Christian,

Opportunity knocked, there was no resisting,

“theres no way in Hell, I wont see what Im missing”…..

--And well, when I fell to dwell in that Hell,

He picked me up, dried me off, like I never fell.

It was all in His plan, he knew that He’d save me,

Cause where is the faith, when there’s no testimony?

Despite when we stray, one thing that holds true—

We are made stronger when we’re made a-new.

Music

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The saying goes, to each his own,

A stack of notebooks, filled with poems,

Some make beats,

But I make tones,

Word play on the page like a saxophone,

A rhythm I like to call my own,

A pen and a page,

Now, baby, let’s bone.

Let’s make sweet music all night long,

As the clock tick tocks ‘til the break of dawn,

I’ll be caressing this page with my sweet love song.

It feels so right,

So it can’t be wrong.

Damn, I’m on,

I must prolong,

Cause to quit on this ish,

I can’t condone.

Like a lost child, without a home,

Me, without words, I couldn’t go on…

the sweetest escape i've ever known....

Do you believe in Fairy Tales??

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“Why am I alone? Am I not good enough?”

Sadly, I’ve heard this TOO many times. If you’re asking yourself any of these questions. The answer could very easily be, no, you’re not good enough. But wait, before the guards go up , I’m speaking in the sense that maybe you have not prepared yourself for an actual relationship and just what that means. Many times you can become caught up in the IDEA of a relationship and not really even consider what may come with the actual relationship. As women, we have been programmed to search for our soulmate, constantly want to be with someone, feel loved, etc etc. However in order to not have your heart trampled on, you have to realize once and for all, that fairy tales were only good when we were kids. The real deal is that most men are not Prince Charming and most relationships are not going to end HappilyEverAfter! When wondering if you are ready for a relationship, ask yourself: Am I ready to give up who I am for a guy? Ready to be naïve? Ready to be made to feel inferior? Am I ready for all the negative that comes with the single positive of “I feel good because I’m with someone”, even if that person is scum of the Earth. Are you ready for what I like to call, the vicious circle that comes with immature guys and sub-par relationships, meaning the continuous bad with a little good thrown in there to keep you around, or the simple cycle of dating with no progression.

Don’t get me wrong I am in NO way speaking on all relationships and these are MY personal beliefs. I have an older sister who is engaged to an awesome, God-fearing man and I truly believe their relationship is blessed and will genuinely work out. However, in my eyes, there is about a 5% chance that the rest of us will find this.

Call me cynical or pessimistic if you want. But sit back an actually think about what I’m saying and you’ll see that there is plenty of truth and validity to my claims. A lot of my close friends are guys and simply through spending time with them, I continue to lose hope daily (lol). But seriously, although I love them to death, they show me that guys just aren’t ready to be men and the way their minds operate are not conducive to what most women seek and need in a relationship, which isn’t helped by the fact that most women are silly and needy—but that’s a topic for another post.

Sometimes I ask myself these questions and I seek daily to answer them:

What if there really ISNT someone for everyone. What if some of us are just destined to be alone, no matter how beautiful, smart, or great of a person we are?
Just because the concept of Soulmates exists, does that mean we are destined to find ours, or is it just lucky for us if we just-so happen to do so?

Personally, I’m not ready for all the work a relationship takes and the thought of commitment doesn’t sit well with me. I can simply wake up in the morning and not want to be with a person anymore, it’s happened before and I still feel the pain of unnecessarily hurting people in my past relationships. What is it within me that makes that happen, I don’t know. Often times, I adopt a pre-emptive mindset, where I will either make it impossible for you to hurt me, by kicking you out of my life, or I will hurt you first.

Im beginning to ramble. More to come later.

Live Life.

Just a thought

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How can I be open to receive, the love you’re trying to give me

When Im running from it--hiding from it,

In all this non-sense and nobody’s.

Always looking for someone to prove me right about the negativity.

When all you want to do is prove me wrong and show me positivity.

And ambiguously,

I falter, flying with the wind, just to soar with the crows below you,

Because you’re so high above me, above them, above this.

And it scares me.

Summer 2010

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So, it's summertime, I figure I have alot more time on my hands, and even more thoughts. I don't really want to put them all down as poetry, so I think I just start doing freewrites. However, it's usually pretty hard for me to keep it condensed in that way because I'll go on and on and on into infinity. Honestly, I don't really know where to start without it being super random. Let's see...summer classes start the end of next week. I still don't have a job. No love interests at all. Social networks and parties have pretty much been my life for the past few weeks. But i do think it will be a great summer, nonetheless.

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"I don’t wanna live where weakness is a strength and pain is a compromise to live this life" --Me.

The Sweetest Love Song Ever Written

The Well

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Do you believe in Fairy Tales??

Just a thought

Summer 2010

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